Let go

Just got back from a dinner and i thought i should jot it down before i forget.

Why the topic? Yea, during the dinner, we chatted a lot of things with my friend and this particularly stayed in my mind. Let go, i never thought of it's difficult to let go things/people, at least it never happened to me when i was much younger. Hence i don't understand why some people can't let go, to certain extend i don't even know that, it relates to psychological problem. So I got to know a friend has gone to this treatment in order to let go his ex-gal friend, my friend's mother lost his husband for many years and still tears when she talked about him and recently a gal friend lost her beloved mother and she teared. Well, yeah, people have the tenancy for can't let it go at the begining but the persistency is depend on individual. We hurt, tears, couldn't sleep/eat but live goes on, time will heal one's heart. But what if, the "can't let go" persist for too long a time?

Since i had mentioned earlier, "couldn't let go" never in my dictionary before, that also due to selfishness i guess. Why? When we let go things easily, it means yeah, it means you never whole heartedly involved, it indicate you don't care about the affected party's feelings, yeah, i used to be simple minded. Things ended - let go-get over it, however over the times, i realised, when things look like ended, a lot of time emotions is not, yeah, we need sometime to get over it. Hence showing an earlier sign of "got over it" is hurting to another, a bit lame huh.

Well, life used to thought me to take things lightly, trust only ownself, life thought me to be self protective, hence the selfishness, i hardly put efforts in relationship, i rarely treasure to the extend what others do, that mean my live used to be emotional free, that also means my life is simple, hate is hate, love is love, no cross line. There is this saying, when we experience difficulties in life, it changed us, we gain wisdom, we grew, we become more mature. Yeah, my later experiences changed me to become more sentimental to people around me, i treasure everyone who walk into my life. So i was innocent until i was hurt and i became selfish so my life is care-free, however later life brought back the treasure traits in me and mess my life greatly.Well, i don't deny when one has the treasure heart, we shared the hurts with someone, but we do gained the joy from other aspect.

Concisely, we, a community animal required mutual respects and cares but one needs to be careful as not to overdo till it affects daily lifes. Let's put it this way, do the best you could before let it go then you would have no regrets. I believed so and i choose to believe, however sometime i do question myself "have you done enough?" :)